Am I Enough?
The last few weeks have been tough and maybe I've been really good at masking it to most of you. Social media has a way of doing that. Unfortunately our grief has been at an all time high. I'm struggling. I question everything. "Am I good enough at work?", "Am I doing this right?", "Am I being a loving wife?", "Am I being a good friend?", "Did I say the right thing?", "Am I good enough to have another baby?". It never fails I lay awake at night asking those questions and so many more. My confidence is lagging and is at its lowest it has ever been. How embarrassing. Waves of grief will hit us out of nowhere. <SMACK> Followed by tears. Oh gosh, all of the tears. I let it happen mostly at home though because tears freak people out. I know I can't live in a bubble forever even though I want to sometimes so I'm open and vulnerable. It's been so hard to accept that life continues on for others while we feel
